resolution 15

as i was driving to penn tech today after work, a song came on the radio about God being our everything...as usual lately when i think about my relationship to God vs. my relationship to others in my life, i started to tear up, wondering how i can get Him back on the throne of my heart and start yearning for more of Him rather than more of someone or something else...i know the correct answer to that question...read my Bible, pray, focus on the things that He has done for me (and most of those are already a part of my resolutions). but i doubt myself and my ability to change. then it hits me...thank God it's not up to me to do the changing! i still doubt, but at least i don't feel as guilty. focusing on God's strength and power is going to be key in this, i can already tell...

this one is going to be a challenging resolution, but i am determined...

15. i resolve to give my thoughts over to God, continually if need be. i will not shove them back into my head and heart until i explode under their pressure. when my thought patterns start to digress into unhealthy territory, i will stop everything and pray that God will take captive my mind and heart.

this is going to be a tough one, and at the moment i need to stop and pray, because just writing about this topic is starting the wheels a-turning...